This Summer

You've got that seed in you.
You've got that seed in you.

Love of God has come first. But then how do you express it? For too long I've been going off of what other people say, thinking it would be so bad not to, but I need to find my own way. I really do. I guess doing that means trusting that I can make the right decisions. I need to start believing in myself, trusting that I will know what to do. I have so, so many questions, so much anxiety, so many worried thoughts, but I just need to let go and let God. Really! There's no other way to do it, I've found. So there's step 1: LET GO, LET GOD. Stop worrying, have faith! I also want to express my love of God in a way that I believe in, a way I find real. I can't have no love of God like the atheists, because that really IS sad. I do believe in a higher power, in a bigger purpose, in being part of some great scheme beyond me. I can feel that in the world, just from meeting another person. I see the beauty and complexity of people, in people. Now I just have to sort this out. Or rather, let God sort it out, let my faith sort it out, believe, love.